Eventhough we have been friends for a long time, it feels like you just don't understand how I feel. You are not to be blamed anyway. You are what you are and that's how I accept you as my friend. This post is for you to know that maybe I am just not going to be able to fit in to your circle of friends. It is something sad but thats how it is. It has got nothing to do with you. Rather it is all about me. Things in my life prevent me sometimes to be who I am. It is hard pill to swallow. When I realise that I am not being appreciated by someone who I want to be appreciated by. I just want to tell you that I feel totally embarassed when people have to talk about how pathetic my relationship can get. I know that you ought to help me solve my problems and you will. But this problem I feel cannot be solved by anyone else except me. I deserve this for not thinking twice before I make a decision. I also want to assure you that THERE IS GOING TO BE NO PLACE FOR ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. It feels sucky knowing that I am just not able to enjoy the fun times with you and the rest simply because of this. Oh well what can I say or do? It's been this way for many years. Somehow I picture myself, ten years down the road regretting and feeling sad that I did not enjoy the fun times when it was there.

THIS IS TO YOU>>> you know who you are and thanks for being there for me <<<
Shanks blogged on 2:10 AM
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At this point of time....

Life sucks!!! I don't know why I have to go through such crap... somehow I am. I guess life's not a 'bed of roses'. I have learnt so many hard lessons through out the years in MI. I guess it was fate that brought me to where I am. Although many a times I would feel that I got myself into this SHIT. My years in MI is definitely the turning point in my life. I still have another year to go. That's if I make it through the exams(i being positive about this). I am grateful for having my parents beside me, especially my mom. Her determination and perseverance amazes me. I really do appreciate all that she has done for me so far. Although we don't share many things in life, it is rather emotionally that I share such feelings for her. I really hope I can do her proud someday.......................................................................................................................................................
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.....................................................................................(no amount of words can describe all great sacrifices that she has made for me)

All that I can say now is : I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH<3
Shanks blogged on 8:02 AM
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